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Using Nightmares To Measure Mental And Emotional Progress
How I Finally Felt Safe Within Myself
I’ve written about some pretty heavy topics over the last year or so but I haven’t yet written about the good stuff that’s coming out of some deep inner work. This is hopefully the first of many stories about the good stuff.
But first, we need a little background for this story that comes from a darker place.
Ever since I was a toddler, I remember having nightmares. Horrible, terrifying dreams about entities that would come to me in my sleep. I shut myself down to close off my perception of these things and while I still had nightmares, they weren’t so clear for me to remember.
Within the last 10 years though, as I’ve begun to work through and heal many traumas, I’ve opened myself back up to these things. You see, when I was a kid, I felt things around me that other people didn’t. I’m not sure if I saw, but I definitely felt them and they made themselves known to me in dreams and nightmares. Now, I feel them again and am recognizing that this is just a part of who I am and it’s nothing to be ashamed of. It just is (for me).
With this opening, the fear has come back.
I’ve had sleep paralysis nightmares where dark beings hang over my bed and I can’t move nor…
